The day my Mother died

We already scheduled our trip to see her and the rest of my family in a couple of weeks but I guess God needed her soon. 

Just like that, she was gone. In her sleep, peacefully. 

No goodbyes…..

I shutdown.  I turned my phone off.  I was too sad, devastated & heartbroken to talk to anyone or even answer text or messages. Nothing felt important anymore. 

I knew my experience in losing her wasn’t unique. I knew every persons parent will die.  In my deepest sadness & slowly accepting a fact, I knew I was blessed to have her, however short it felt. She was an extra ordinarily charismatic woman who’s smile can light up a room and who’s scowl can make my nieces & nephews nervous. 

She loved life, freely give whatever little she got, loved food, love chocolates….. and above all, she loved her family. 

My life is now divided into two. One with her and my father and one without them. 

I am grateful for the opportunity to be her daughter. Grateful to physically exists in the same energy field as hers. While her death pains me, her life sustains me. You cannot die if you have never lived. I am grateful for her life. 

With an absolute certainty that one day, I will see my nanay & tatay again. 

I am grateful…

Thank you to all that took their time to reach out in whatever form it may be, please bear with me if I don’t answer back right away. I am very slowly going back to life, one day at a time.

Happy New Year

It is not too long before we welcome a new year, 2015 and I am more than looking forward to a better, bigger and fabulous year ahead. I know that I been MIA here in the blog not by choice but because my body sometimes just give up and I need to take some rest here and there and of course the holidays ! The whole family had colds and flu over the holidays and we are now just recovering and thankful. Hopefully my eye infection will also get better and better so I can take decent pictures without my swollen eyes. 

May the new year brings all of us with endless laughter, joy, great health and love. 

Thank YOU from the heart.

xoxo

Sam

Touches of gold

The thing about wearing OTK boots for me is to keep everything in your outfit simple. The boots itself is already a statement, therefore the rest of the outfit should just play a secondary role. I want a look that is less busy, more cohesive and not complicated. It may have been a monotone outfit but the texture play a big difference. I say it over and over in almost all my post but I think it makes dressing up so much fun and make us somehow a pro in mixing textures and prints. I am a fan of an all black ensemble but I like to add some spice to it. Case in point, some gold touches. Easy peesy, if you ask me. Out the door in no time. I like color, I like print and textures but we always go back with the basic of staying in one solid color. I called it cleaning the palette and start with something new tomorrow. 

I hope you like it. 

Thank you from the heart.

xoxo

Sam

-Outfit-

{Fur gilet: Zara(oldie), Dres: H&M(oldie), OTK Boots: Sam & Libby via Target

Bag: Alice & Joy, Necklace/Bangle: Vince Camuto, Ring: F21}